These are my confessions....

I have a confession...
When I was leaving Provo, on Friday, to drive to SLC I chose to take State Street to Lehi and get on the freeway in Lehi.  Thus doing so I avoided the insane freeway traffic.  Anyway, as I'm driving Northbound on State Street it hit me that this was the same way I would drive when I'd go get Mr. Darcy. 
Instantaneously, a wave of emotion struck me and I knew what I wanted to do.  I wanted to drive past his house, park my car, and march up to the front doors and demand to speak to him.   Don't worry, I did not do that. 
I did, however, turn off of State street in Lindon and did a quick drive by.  It was eerie to me that I remembered exactly where he lived without even having to think twice about it.  While I drove past his house I was tempted to flip it off or curse obscenities out the passenger window but I just smiled, and waved goodbye to my past.  It was quite therapeutic for me and I feel at peace.  It's only taken how long for me to really feel at peace...5 and a half months?  Good heavens Andi!!  :)  Phew, I feel better that my confession is out there for all to read.  Love you all!! 

Love, Andi

October

I am not sure why it has taken me over 1 month to write to you...could it be that nothing has been happening in my life? No, that's not it.  Maybe an over abundance of things in my life? No, that's not it either.  Hmmm...I think I have just been lazy. 

I think that's exactly it...I'm lazy with writing to you.  In fact I just 'googled' the term lazy and it produced some definitions which I would like to share with you. 
1. averse or disinclined to work, activity, or exertion; indolent.
2.  Causing idleness or indolence
3.  Slow-moving; sluggish
The crazy part is that I work like a crazy person at Insight Eye Care(www.drsteed.com) and even have days like just recently when I feel like I have run a marathon whilst being at work.  I just want what I write to be entertaining, yet real, and sometimes I think I just don't have the energy to put into making it great.  Anyway...I'm sorry I have been slacking with writing to you but I promise I will be better. 

October was a fantastic month and lots of really fun and exciting things happened.  I will recap just a few things.

1.  My Mom and I like going to a place in Boulder City,NV called Goatfeathers (www.goatfeathers.us) where we go Antiquing. Let me rephrase this...my Mom goes Antiquing and I accompany her.  This one Saturday as I was digging through a box of post cards I came across of Thanksgiving postcard and I flipped it over (because I like to read the inscriptions) and the first thing I noticed was the date.  The date the post card was written was October 23,1923.  The cool thing was that I happened to find this post card on October 23, 2010.  I was reading/holding something that had been written the exact same day but 87 years earlier!  Here is what is said...
'Dear Cousins: Just a line to let you know I am well and will write a letter soon as ever.  Your Cousin.' 
It was signed with a name but I can not make it out to save my life.  This postcard was addressed to:
Miss Mary Taylor
3233 Vernon Ave
Chicago, IL
I am in love with this postcard and it made my day!

2.  I traveled to Salt Lake City,UT for my cousin Angie's annual Halloween party.  I drove up on Thursday evening and stayed in Provo,UT with my Brother and his family.  I got to spend time with my niece Maddie and enjoyed every single minute with her.  I drove up to SLC that Friday after my very talented sister did my hair for my costume and had the MAC counter at Nordstrom's do my make-up.  I arrived in SLC around 5:30 because traffic was so bad and had Angie put me to work.  She and her roommate Jen had decorated for days before and so all I really did was heat the baby quiches in the oven.  I should've been more help. Angie was a referee, I was a bitch (bee/witch), and Jen was Deron Williams of the Utah Jazz.  We all looked soo great!!  The party was amazing!  Angie's brother, Rob, and his boyfriend, Tosh, came to the party as Mario and Luigi.  They looked so good!  The party turned in to a huge neighborhood party because all of Angie and Jen's neighbors were having there parties the exact same night.  So we all just opened up the front doors and we all kind of came and went as we pleased.  I met some of the nicest gay men that evening and am so thankful that I was there.
The day after I met my family at Gardner Village to look around and have lunch at their restaurant.  I love the food at their restaurant it is soo good.  Kelli and I both got the California Croissant sandwich and it was to die for! After lunch we went and visited my Grandma Wanda.  Grandma Wanda is my Dad's Mom and she is very ill.  In October of 2009 we had driven to Utah numerous times because she was very sick, refusing to eat/drink, and we were told to come say goodbye.  Those were some of the hardest trips I have ever made.  One of the trips up there in 2009 we were at the assisted living facility and we all took turns going in to say goodbye.  I remember holding her fragile hand and telling her how sorry I was for not visiting more, and how I will forever remember watching Anne of Green Gables and eating chocolate chip cookies with her at her condo.  She told me she wanted me to be happy and to find someone who will be good to me.  I told her I loved her and said goodbye. 
A few weeks later she rallied and became healthier and stronger much to all of our surprise. I digress...she rallied for a little while but she has Alzheimer's and so her memory is failing her and a few weeks ago she fell.  So, we are back to her not wanting to eat/drink and occasionally she doesn't even remember who my Grandpa is and wonders who this strange man is in bed with her. It breaks my heart.  So we went and saw her and she is a great little actress because she seemed to remember who we all were and asked about our lives and told us we looked happy etc.  Grandpa says that there is really no way she remembered who we are.  It was good to see her though.  I love my Grandma Wanda.  

Saturday night Angie, Jen, and I went to a haunted house out in West Valley City and had a fun time screaming like little girls. After the haunted house we went to the trusty 7-11 and purchased steamy cups of hot chocolate and drove back to their house.  At that point Angie and I put our costumes back on and headed out to round 2 of parties.  It was such a fun night!! 

Sunday I said goodbye to my friends and drove to Provo to spend a little more time with the Provo crew and then Mom,Dad, and I drove back to Henderson.  It was a super good weekend. 

Well, I think those few things are the only note-worthy events from October.  I really will be better about writing in November.  My goal will be to write once a day and to get better about putting pictures with my posts.  Thank you for being my friend, my blog-follower, and my all around support team.  You are the greatest!!  Sweet dreams! 

Love, Andi